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We are only human. This is something we often forget when we make mistakes in our lives or beat ourselves up over feeling anxious or depressed. I have suffered from anxiety for as long as I can remember, the only difference is that I didn't know what it was when I was younger. Recently, since late last year, my anxiety has probably been at the highest level it has ever been. I had a lot going on in my head, from doctors appointments, to family, my career, and I started to lose sight of who I was.
If any of you have ever suffered from anxiety you will know first hand what it feels like, but there are a lot of people out there who don't. For me, I can go from one extreme to the other. I can either be more caring for my friends and family to shut out the worry that I have in my head, or I can be trapped in my own little bubble, constantly thinking about what is wrong in my life, not wanting to leave the house and thinking 'when will I stop feeling like this?'. Unfortunately this can sometimes effect friendships as your actions will be perceived in the wrong way.
Anxiety is one of the hardest things to explain to someone because you know, deep down, that you are being silly and your thoughts have just got the better of you, but you just can't help it. I used to brush it off and not tell anyone how I was feeling or why I was suffering, but I've come to realise, that doesn't get you anywhere and it can end up hurting those you love.
I am still at a very high level of my anxiety, and I am trying to get through it day-by-day, one step at a time. One thing I have learnt in recent events is that we are only human. We can only do so much at a time, for ourselves and for others, and if we mess up then we mess up. We are only human and we need to remember this. So this is for anyone who may be feeling this way, getting caught up in their anxiety, or anything else you may be going through. Breathe, and take each day as it comes - you are doing the best you can.
You are only human,
and you are allowed to make mistakes.
You are allowed to fall apart sometimes.
You are allowed to hurt and feel pain too much.
You are allowed to ache and get jealous.
Be easy on yourself and let yourself grow.
Let yourself learn.
Let yourself be.
You are only human,
and you are allowed to make mistakes.' - Nikita Gill