Dress: Pretty Little Thing (but found in a charity shop) // Bag & Boots: New Look
As you may have seen in my previous post I touched upon having a fear of failing. This has come from trying to start up a business, on more than one occasion, and it not working out. Since I haven't sewn anything in a while I sort of have a fear of getting back to my sewing machine as I don't want the same thing to happen again. It sounds completely ridiculous but anyone who has ever been in a similar position before will know what I mean.
I think, because I have tried to run a business before whilst in full-time work, I now have this thing in my head telling me that it won't work out, and that I'm not good enough to make it etc - and they are horrible thoughts to have about yourself. When really, the fact is, I was just never ready before. A lot of people manage to hold down a full-time job on top of starting up a small business on the side, but I've learnt that I just can't do it that way. I need to take my time, to perfect my business plan and have no other stresses getting in the way.
I lost my passion, my drive, my motivation to sew anything at all! I was losing sight of my dreams and questioning myself, and then a chat with a very good friend made me realise that I just need to do it (queue Shia LaBeouf). This self doubt that I have lurking in my head (and yes it is still there) is similar to the anxiety that I often feel. I need to push past it and do what I want to do and not let it get in my way.
Have you ever been in a similar situation? How did you manage to get past it? I am a long way off yet, so I would love to know.