Do you ever just feel like you're stuck in a rut and you have no idea how to get out? Yeah, that's how I've been feeling for quite some time now. Every now and then I have my bursts of energy, ideas and really productive days where I get organised and get loads done, and then before you know it it's gone and it's like you don't have any energy any more or the will to do anything. This is a horrible feeling and one that I am determined to get out of before the new year comes (start as you mean to go on and all that).
When I feel like this one of the things I like to do most is go on Pinterest and just search loads of quotes, and not to mention read over the ones I have already saved on my 'Inspire' board. It may sound silly to some but reading motivational quotes really does help me, even if it's just a short fix. The fact is though, no one else can get me out of this rut but me. No one else can make me do the things I want to do but me.
When you're in a rut it feels like there is no way out, no light at the end of the tunnel. That sounds a lot deeper than it actually is, but that is how I feel when I'm in a rut, and trust me I've been in one for quite some time.
Without blaming anyone but myself I do think it is partly due to my job. I used to work in retail, always on my feet, bombing it around the shop floor and still feeling full of energy when I got home. Now I work in an office, sat on my lazy bum all day and when I get home all I want to do is sit on my lazy ass (I better start doing my squats before it goes flat!). My point is that I need to find that energy that I once had and get it back into my life so that I stop being so god darn lazy. Jack always tells me I'm not lazy as I'm always doing something but I just don't feel like I'm doing enough.
I need to introduce exercise back into my life. I ended up quitting the gym a few months ago as I was just wasting money and I did start to watch YouTube video's to do home work-outs, but again that failed. I need to dig deep and find something inside me, the old, motivated me. The me that would go to sleep happy knowing that I had achieved something that day. I miss that me, and it's time to get me back. I'm not quite sure how this is going to happen, all I know is, I can't keep going on like this because one day I'll look back on my life and think 'I had one life to live, what the hell did I do with it?!'.
So for now that was my little rant/life update but I'll keep you posted on how it goes. If you see me blogging a lot then you'll know it's going well, and if you haven't seen one in a while then leave me a comment telling me to get off my lazy ass!