Hey beauts,
Another month passed that I haven’t written to you...where
does the time go?! Me and Jack are settling into our flat really well. I almost
cannot believe it’s been a month that we’ve been here already! I guess time really
does fly when you’re having fun!
I feel so much happier these days. Before we moved into this
flat I was miserable at my old job, my Dad was ill and soon to be having
surgery, and on top of that Jack and Dad’s friendship wasn’t great. I was ‘stuck-in-the-mud’
(anyone else remember that game at school?!) and I just couldn’t seem to pull
myself out. But I soon did. I took it upon myself to quit the job that was
making me unhappy, despite not having another job lined up and me and Jack went
to view a couple of flats. It’s the little steps, and risks, that we take that
help you to move on in life. I’ve learnt that a lot over recent months. I am
now in a job that I would never have dreamed of being in, and I’ll admit it’s
not where I intend on staying, but for now it’s a little step towards my
dreams. This job could potentially earn me the money I need to one day have my
own business. Sometimes in life we need to take these gambles, and be in jobs
we don’t necessarily want to be in, another thing in which myself, and Jack,
have learnt.
My Dad is now on the road to recovery. You see, I never
mentioned this before but he had bowel cancer and the tumour was pretty big.
Fortunately the wonderful staff at Southampton General Hospital managed to
operate and remove the tumour, which was the size of two fists. The consultation
yesterday confirmed that they managed to remove all of the cancer. I’m welling
up just thinking about it and how relieved we all are. The next step is to have
more chemotherapy until Winter time and then check-ups for the next three
years. I still get upset thinking about it because it almost doesn’t seem real.
It’s like this isn’t my life and this didn’t happy to me or my family, because my
Dad is a saint and managed to stay positive throughout the whole thing,
sometimes you’d forget he was even ill! Me and my Dad are really close and I
cannot be any prouder of him than I am now. I aspire to always be as positive as
him, even in the darkest of times.
Anyway, today I wanted to show you one of my favourite
places in (or out?) of our flat; our balcony. That’s right, I’m not quite ready to show you
inside yet ;) We sort of have our own little garden going on with two pots of
pretty flowers and some chillies and peppers growing on the side, all thanks to
my Dad for growing them in the first place. We can actually see some little
buds on the chillies now so it’s all very exciting!! Today I took most of our
cushions out onto the balcony and enjoyed a few hours in the sun, just relaxing.
It’s so peaceful where we live, it’s a nice place to escape and just have some
time to think and appreciate where I am in life. I thought it was a really
pretty setting, especially with the flower garland surrounding me. This evening
might bring a few candles, a glass of wine and a cuddle under the blanket with
Jack, and it’ll be all the more pretty with my fairy lights around the top of
our balcony shining in the night.
I say this all of the time, but I really do miss blogging. I
have had some trouble with TalkTalk’s internet. If you ever want internet, do
not go with them! Now to head to Dad’s to upload this and call BT to get some
internet in our flat. I’m going out of my mind not having it!! A typical
blogger, ey?
Speak to you soon lovelies,
P.s - I uploaded a new YouTube video yesterday showing you some of the little things me and Jack bought for the flat. Take a look at my channel here, and don’t forget to thumbs up and subscribe. I may not be around all the time but I’m still here!
