I feel like I may have started this year on slightly the wrong foot. Not because I have done anything stupid or embarrassed myself in any way, but purely for my outlook on my life most of the time recently. This may sound all very negative and depressing and may turn out to be a boring, ‘stop-talking-Kirsti’ kind of post, but I can assure you it isn’t.
With life changing a lot for me lately and having to save, save, save those pennies (!!) things can get a bit mundane and start to get to me and I end up getting myself stressed out, worked up and quite upset. You see, me and my boyfriend are hoping to move out of my Dad’s as soon as possible and start our own life together, (in Brighton, here’s hoping!!) however me and Jack both have things we want to do first which cost a lot of money and with me not earning enough money and Jack being a tattoo apprentice we can’t seem to see the light at the end of the tunnel. That being said we always try to keep a positive outlook on life and make the most of spending time together, because despite living together we barely see each other due to our busy working lifestyles. I work two night shifts a week and the other three working days I am up at 4:30am each day (tiring is the biggest understatement!), and Jack currently has 2 jobs, so as soon as he finishes one he is off to do the other until quite late at night.
I feel like I am constantly thinking about the future and what I want to happen and getting down because I’m doing everything I can to help with our situation but still feeling stuck, rather than just enjoying the here and now. I am so incredibly lucky to have a family who supports me with all of my decisions and the dearest friends who keep me sane, positive and laughing each day. And not to mention an amazing boyfriend who loves me dearly and would do anything to see me happy, and the same for me to him. Therefore I am taking a pledge today to enjoy each day as it comes, especially the little things in life. Obviously future goals will still be in mind and ones I will continue to strive towards, but I am a strong believer of fait and my outlook on life generally is ‘if it’s meant to be, it will be’. So I may move out this year, I may not. I may get a new job this year, I may not. I will always push myself to get to where I want to be, but if it doesn’t happen as soon as I would like it to I need to remember that it wasn’t meant to be and something better will come along.
Does anyone else seem to get themselves stressed out easily about life, money careers etc? I’m sure I’m not the only one, and this is just a little post to say keep positive, keep working towards those goals but also try not to get too stressed out with yourself. You shine brighter when you’re happy :)
Speak soon sweeties, and for anyone else feeling the January blues, remember this quote and all the good things life has to offer you right now :)