I feel like I may have started this year on slightly the
wrong foot. Not because I have done anything stupid or embarrassed myself in
any way, but purely for my outlook on my life most of the time recently. This
may sound all very negative and depressing and may turn out to be a boring, ‘stop-talking-Kirsti’
kind of post, but I can assure you it isn’t.
With life changing a lot for me lately and having to save,
save, save those pennies (!!) things can get a bit mundane and start to get to
me and I end up getting myself stressed out, worked up and quite upset. You see,
me and my boyfriend are hoping to move out of my Dad’s as soon as possible and
start our own life together, (in Brighton, here’s hoping!!) however me and Jack both have things we want to do first which cost a lot of money and with me not
earning enough money and Jack being a tattoo apprentice we can’t seem to see
the light at the end of the tunnel. That being said we always try to keep a
positive outlook on life and make the most of spending time together, because
despite living together we barely see each other due to our busy working
lifestyles. I work two night shifts a week and the other three working days I
am up at 4:30am each day (tiring is the biggest understatement!), and Jack
currently has 2 jobs, so as soon as he finishes one he is off to do the other
until quite late at night.
I feel like I am constantly thinking about the future and what
I want to happen and getting down because I’m doing everything I can to help
with our situation but still feeling stuck, rather than just enjoying the here
and now. I am so incredibly lucky to have a family who supports me with all of
my decisions and the dearest friends who keep me sane, positive and laughing
each day. And not to mention an amazing boyfriend who loves me dearly and would
do anything to see me happy, and the same for me to him. Therefore I am taking
a pledge today to enjoy each day as it comes, especially the little things in
life. Obviously future goals will still be in mind and ones I will continue to
strive towards, but I am a strong believer of fait and my outlook on life
generally is ‘if it’s meant to be, it will be’. So I may move out this year, I
may not. I may get a new job this year, I may not. I will always push myself to
get to where I want to be, but if it doesn’t happen as soon as I would like it
to I need to remember that it wasn’t meant to be and something better will come
along.
Does anyone else seem to get themselves stressed
out easily about life, money careers etc? I’m sure I’m not the only one, and
this is just a little post to say keep positive, keep working towards those
goals but also try not to get too stressed out with yourself. You shine
brighter when you’re happy :)
Speak soon sweeties, and for anyone else feeling the January blues, remember this quote and all the good things life has to offer you right now :)
